Birthday Surprise

What a 180 degree flip my birthday yesterday turns out to be =)

charm in new tube top hugging zee pillow

* dark suave voice* Good morning Angel

* sweet enthusiastic reply * Good morning Charlie !

At 1st, I was staying at home after cancelling everything ( Newcastle, Manchester, Turkish dinner, clubbing, cake, shopping ). No money ma. ( Read previous blogs then u'll understand. ). A boring day was anticipated.

My dad & grandfather called in the morning to wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY . I'm a daddy's girl. Alwiz have, alwiz will =) I love u pops. I love u too, yeh yeh... ( which means grandpa in cantonese. ) My dad told me to go buy my birthday prezzie, using his credit card. =D Thanks pops ! But sorry pa, I cant use your credit card. Not when you need it more than I do.

Amman kept calling the whole day to wish me Happy Birthday again n again. Yarr aren't u the sweetest thang? Wore my new tube top given by James and my dark brown jacket given by Burcu. Head on to Subways to meet Amman where he treated me to a Subway thingy. I duno what u called it. Anyway. Chat awhile but he gotta continue working. Thing that made me smile was " Can you stay here awhile and look pretty for me? " =) Thx Yarrrrr... HUGGSSS~~

I then head on to the Salvation Army near my house to shop for 2nd hand clothes. Earlier I had korek out the coins I have. Muahahha go clear your cupboard. It's amazing how much coins u can collect. Sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit. Got myself second-hands of a Topshop pink cardigan and a French Connection checked winter skirt. All for only £4. Beggars cant be choosers, no? That's what my mom alwiz say. The cashier was amused at the coins I presented to him. Didn't use my dad's card. Tell u a secret. I sometimes buy 2nd hand clothes. So what? Cant afford branded new ones wert. That's y u see I have a lot of over-sized winter jackets. Cheap, Comfy & Warm.

There. It's ok if you're disgusted at me. It happens.

Anyway, I was heading back home, then upstairs in my room, organizing my lecture notes ( Note the 'organizing' , not studying ) when I heard voices downstairs. Thinking it might be the guests which my landlady had for these 2 nites, I didn't bother checking.

N then 10 mins later I heard " Charmine ! Come downstairs ! "

*Pitter patter of charm's feet down the steps*

" SURPRISE !! "

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUU....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOO CHARMINNNNEEEE ~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUU........

Ahhhhh Thank you guys ! Pei Sian & Jun Li, I love u both sooo sooo much !

I seriously thought you'll not be doing anything when I busted on your plan yesterday and said just cancelled it for the day.

cutting zee tiramisu cake

Ohhh you guys shouldn't have wasted money and all... London's so expensive ! But thank you very very much from the bottom of my heart ! MUAHHH !~!

We makan-ed zee lovely Tiramisu cafe latte. Ah... Bliss. N then chit chat about politics & economy. Haha.... How predictable of us ACCA nerds. Nevertheless, I had fun. We all did. =)

Thank you so much guys !

zee lovely presents =)

Whoop de dooop ~~ Plus another reason to celebrate... Today, Carphone Warehouse text me to say that they had approved of my cash back. Actually I sent the application 2 months late but they still accept it. Yay ! I'll be getting back some money within 30 days.

It's amazing how God works miracles. I had never expected Carphone to accept my application, I just prayed and hoped. I'm not exaggerating any of this btw... Praise God ! This really testifies His great works =) WOW.

Amazing Grace, How sweet the sound

That save a wretched like me

I once was lost, But now am found

Was blind, But now I SEE...

AMEN !

Happy Birthday Charm

Lookin at the clock, it's 4am. 4 hours into my special day... Funny I don't feel anything special at all. Bahh. I'm such a dope. Friends online in MSN wishing well wishes and asking what's my plan for the day. Malaysia's awake now while some crazy Londoners are still up at this hour. Hmm sounds familiar.

Anyway. Basically. I have no plan. Well I did. If u read my previous blog, I had loads of birthday plans. Trip to Newcastle, Manchester, York, dinner etc. But I absolutely have no mood to melaksanakan any of it now. I cant be a spoiled brat and demand this-that since I'm very low on liquidity. I cancelled everything once I found out I cant receive my allowance on time. Besides, I cant go home in Dec anymore and I'm officially virtually broke.

I found out Pei Sian & Jun Li had wanted to get a birthday cake n surprise me but I busted their plan. At 1st I agreed on a dinner with some other classmates which PS had planned secretly but nahh... since not everyone can make it, and I'm not in the mood anyway, let's just cancel the plan. Stay at home n be miserable. Wait. START STUDYING. Eew study on my birthday? Start studying at all? Finals less than 2 months wo. If I really wanna graduate this Dec and be an ACCA graduate at 20, I have to.

What happened 4 hrs ago from my last post? Ok this sounds mysteriously weird. I duno about you, but the question freaked me out. Prob coz I'm alone in the kitchen right now in the middle of a cold foggy nite. With weird cat moanings and water running outside. I wondered what happened. N time had passed so mysteriously fast. Calm down Charm. Chill baby.

Let's think straight.... U had talked to God. Chat with people. Friends calling in. Texts. MSN. The whole usual lot. Ok ok I got my memory back. Again I had offers of help from my 2 exs Billy & Darvin. Thanks guys. Darv even wanted to email his guardian in the UK to help me out. Darv used to study high school here so he knows some ppl. Thankxx Darv. I really appreciate everything. N to zee wonderful readers, sorry if I had sounded like I'm trying to brag or stg. It's not like that. Really wan la...

4am. Reminds me of the song 4 In The Morning by Gwen Stefani. One of my favs. Sad ballad. "Stayed up till 4 in the morning & the tears are pouring & I want to make it worth the fight..." How suitable huh.

Wait now it's almost 4.30am. Which brings me to another fav song. Come To Me by P Diddy & Nicole Sherzinger of Pussycat Dolls. Yeah I think you all can recognise as my ringtone for the Summer Hols in Pg.

The video clip was like..
Alarm rings "It's 4.30am. Please wake up."
Nokia ringtone on P Diddy's hp.
Girlfriend picks up.
"Hello? Yeah... He'll be there"
Music starts.
"It's bad boy b*tch... Do it to it.."

What am I doing? I should be memorising ACCA notes. Not MTV clips.
Plus I should go to sleep. But I'm not sleepy. Maybe I'll just go lie in bed. Yeah I should. Nitez. Or Good Morning Malaysia.

Last Few Moments As A Teen

In a few mins time I'll be officially 20. I should be celebrating. Or at least be happy. Wait... Smile will do...

But I simply cant. Not with what I'm going through. But hey... God had definitely help me since my last post. ZH had helped to pay for 2 subjects of my QBD. Ok this could be a reason for a faint grin. =) Now I only need to hunt another £170 for the 3rd paper.

Lots of friends had offered to lend me money, esp after reading my blog yesterday, but I didn't wanna accept coz I wanna count on myself. Besides, I dunno when I could get the money to pay 'em back. Thank you so much, I really appreciate all the offer...

Amman wanted to borrow from couple of friends to pull enough money for me. Thankx Yarr ( which means friend in Urdu ) but I cant let u do that. My ex Billy had came online and ask me what's wrong. He offered to send money to me from Qatar. Ya he's working there now as a cabin crew. He was really persistent to send and in the end, I gave in coz I'm kinda desperate. But a call to Zi Hur asking the procedures for money transfer lead him to lending me instead. Billy was offended that I took from ZH and not him. They're not in good terms you see. Let's just put it this way that boyfriends and guy bestfriends hardly get along.

Thank you so much, ZH... I would repay u as soon as my parents get the money to transfer to me. HUGSS... I'm glad I have a best pal like you...

Was on my way to Tesco to get some groceries this afternoon when my family called. It was 5 pm here. 12am Malaysian time. They wished me Happy Birthday and insisted it was the right time to call, since I was born in Malaysia so I should follow their time. Cute la... *smile* After a round of well wishes, I was dawned on another bad news : My Ah Ee's back-bone hurts a lot and might need to go for operation. You see, she alwiz cooks and cleans for my family. And my family cooks for the church sunday lunch so she's very handy with cooking large portions but now I guess it's gonna be a feat on my stressed up parents. Even so, I'm worried for my Ah Ee's health. My sis said that my great grandmother's health is deteriorating too. Haih... what can I do?

I cant celebrate and rejoice at this moment. I simply cant. You know, I'm the type of person who wants occasions & moments to be special & memorable. Things have to be special for the capturing of the moment. Naturally, I had wanted to make this birthday BIG. 20th birthday wo. End of teens and beginning of num 2 in front of your age.

• I had planned to go Newcastle last weekend for the pre-birthday celebration.
• Then dinner on zee big day at the Turkish restaurant that Burcu works in, which I happened to know the waiters there (whom also happens to be very good-looking Mediterranean guys). Then probably head on clubbin in the West End.
• End of the month travel up to Manchester again to meet up with friends in their college trip to York to see the Vikings Festival.

You tell me macam mana I tergamak laksanakan any of it with the current situation I'm in?

Lookin at the clock, I'm left with about 10 mins before my special day begins. I never dread the coming of birthday like I do now. Coz I cant even make it special for myself. Text messages wishing well wishes come flooding in. Plus the whole lot of MSN, FS n Facebook. Somehow that managed to put a smile on my face. Sorry if I sound braggy. Didn't mean to. But Thank you, dear friends. I'm glad I have u all.

I wanna spend the last few minutes of my teens in prayer with God. That's the thing that seems soothing now. I better go. Bye.

Status : Broke & Desperate

I'm broke.
Some people meant it metaphorically. Or just as a figure of speech or a joke. Charm? Literally.

Haih... Let me explain to you... I have allowance of only £500 ( RM 3,500 ) per month, including rent, bills, phone usage, food, necessities etc.

But then you might think, I thought u had scholarship wert... Senang la... It's not that simple ler... I applied for the one that sponsors only the course tuition fees, but not my expenses etc. If I wanted sponsorship for everything then I would be bonded by the company. My parents decided they could support on my monthly expenses part, therefore I picked the one without bonding. I would have to pay 1st and then they reimburse us. Getting free education is not easy I tell you.

But thing is, honestly, my family is just an average-income family. My parents cant afford to put one big lump sum of money into my bank account over here to survive through the year, like some other overseas student. My mom would send me money every month to sustain me through until I run out of cash again. And everytime I do, do you know how hard it is to ask from my parents money, knowing they're so tight on liquidity? I felt like such a big burden on my family. I had quit on my job and finding a new one less than 2 months before my finals is kinda like suicide. Besides, no one's gonna hire me if I start and quit before the exams...

Earlier, our family had thought that we could pull through it all coz my dad's 1 year plus of project work would finally be paid off. But now the stingy-wicked-mean-ol' client of my dad refuse to pay up my dad's commission. A year's pay gone just like that. Like WTF?? This client is such a rich company director and a prominent shareholder in some big Malaysian companies but cant honour his side of the payment? My fren and I had googled bout this fella and guess what, he's on the Sultan of Kedah's birthday list of honours. HONOUR MY FOOT. He's the least person on the list to deserve the honours. Exploiting sole businessman like my dad.

I SO WANNA SCREAM OUT LOUD.... AAAAHHHHHHHHH

My bank account is less than £50 as of today. Probably could survive for another week or so. This means I have to ask for money again... It really is a burdening request everytime... I just talked to my family on skype. My mom was really in a bad mood coz she cant find £510 in time for me to pay for my QBD Fees. I don't mind not having money for expenses.. I can surely dig up something. I just need to pay for this QBD.

Feel so pek cek & frust being so far away and cant help out. If I'm back home in Pg, I'll go up to that bloke's office and demand him to pay up. Probably flex my muscle. N show my mean face. Think I'm scared ah ? Come la !

Haih... that's such an impulsive childish thinking. If it's really that simple my dad would've gotten the money earlier la. Law suit settlement would antagonise the situation. How can I fight against such a powerful fella? I cant even get pass his bodyguards la.... I admit I had cried a lot thinking about the whole thing. Luckily I had darvin n wei xin to comfort me. Thx guys.... I was trying to brain storm how I'm gonna pay for my QBD. Well, God had promised that he'll provide. So I put my full trust in Him.

Lord, give us today our daily bread... Your grace is sufficient for me... I trust you'll do what's best for us Lord... I trust fully in you mighty Heavenly Father... Pull us through this crisis Lord... Please do not forsake us your children... I ask all these in the name of our Saviour and for His sake. Amen.

The Ultimatum - Charm Won't Be Back For Christmas Or CNY

Yes u heard it right. I can't go home this Winter 07/08 coz my family cant afford it.

I actually have an open ticket which I could use to come home before 31st Dec. But if I DO fly home, I would need to buy another ticket back to London, which is about RM 3k plus. The open ticket is already a sunk cost, i.e. past expenditure so my parents had decided to forgo it, so they wouldn't have to dig out another RM 3k for the flight back. =(

I admit I had went back to Penang twice this year, so I shouldn't be such a spoiled brat demanding to fly home I guess...

My 1st flight home in March was to attend my CAT Foundation Graduation ( which IPG had conveniently missed out my sem's batch, and even postponed the ceremony till April, when I'm already back in London ). Although I had managed to buy really cheap air ticks for this one, but still... You can imagine my frustations at the wasted flight.

2nd flight home during Summer Hols, was made in an impulse coz of personal reasons. I literally worked like mad to save money for this flight home. My close friends would know how I agree to almost every job offer, even on late night shifts just to earn the cash for my flight. Wei when I said I'd accept almost anything, pls don't luan-luan think k? I have my own PRINCIPLES and I won't go that far just to get some money.

Anyway... it's not like I don't have any friends here to enjoy with. But it's just not the same. I came to London not knowing anybody. No relatives, No friends. Nobody. I started everything from scratch. I DO have friends in other parts of England but they're all so far away from London, the capital city.

I made plenty of new friends here, from all over the world. N my new life here begins. I've gone through ups and downs, mostly by myself. N God. I was so naive with life before this. Not fully grasping at the fact that there's such a WHOLE BIG WORLD out there and lots of different kinds of people. Tell u honestly, guys here just wanna bed u, esp those u meet in clubs. How lucky I was to escape again and again. I never did learn my lesson last time but now I do. God was gracious and faithful to protect me from harm. He made me wiser, more alert. Don't worry, nothing awful happened to me.

Studying abroad does widen your perspective and outlook on life huh... You cant stay forever in a nutshell. So many stuff still goes on around you everywhere in the world so you cant be an ignorant dong-dong like I was. But don't worry, I'm still the same ol' Charm, just that : -

• more matured but not fully
• more of the confidence touch
• more cheeky =)
• more aware of my surroundings
• more simple towards life
• wiser? I hope
• less childish ( Nooooo I want the kid in me back... )
• less logging on to Friendster ( Please for goodness sake it's over-rated! )
• less Facebook-ing as well
• less fussy ( Was I ever one? Hehe... )
• no more Prison Break
• no more Heroes
• no more movies

Haha... That's about it all I guess. Anyway i gotta go now... laundry awaits charm... catcha later!

Tribute to my Beloved Burcu

Charm & Burcu darling

My room-mate n party partner Burcu has finally moved out yesterday, after being roomies for 3 months... Awwww.... So sad... Being the hopeless sentimental freak that I am, I cant help feeling like there's a cloud hanging above my head today.

Burcu before the dyeing-hair-operation.

Hair colouring and getting ready to hit da club !

Doesn't she look so sweet? Sigh... before I moved here, I was worried we're not gonna be compatible. You know how particular I could be at times. After a week of being room-mates with Burcu, who's from Turkey, I found out we have a lot in common ! We share the same opinion about fashion, guys, music and chocolates ! Oh how we would chat about our own relationship experiences and have girly pillow talk... Or try out clothes and have our own London Fashion Week. Che wah. Glamour leh... We absolutely love Zara, Topshop & Next. ( She can afford la coz she's working in GAP but I'm not =S ). We even go clubbin together. Over here in the UK, I only go to clubs IF there's someone I know for a long time is going with me, i.e. highly RARE. I don't go with any new college mates and that's why I'm a nerd-in-the-making in their eyes.

Burcu & Charm @ Walkabout

Burcu and I like the same type of music, esp Love Songs and R&B... We would alwiz play songs and be our own DJ in our room. Our favourite is Ayo Technology (She Wants It) by 50 Cent feat. Justin Timberlake & Timbaland. We'll play this song on You Tube and she'll be Fitty & I'm JT and we'll impersonate funny imitations of them.. "The smoke's got the club all hazy, spotlights don't do you justice baby..." - Our fav quote in the song. We love Ne-Yo as well... especially Because of You. "Baby you've become my addiction..." . We'll pretend we're Ne-Yo's girls and have girly fun ! When my fav songs are played on the radio, she'll remember and turn it louder.

Burcu & I on the bus on our way to a Turkish restaurant.

We're both the top 2 messiest babes around. Just take a look at our table. Hahaha...

I'll help her tidy up her stuff alwiz coz I know she'll be tired after work to clear it. She hangs my clothes and take them in if I'm out. She sometimes make nice Turkish food for me. I learn to eat many Turkish dishes. I esp like Dalma, which is stuffed food inside vine leaves. On her last night here, we had a romantic dinner in our kitchen with candles. I know she absolutely love 'em so I alwiz get her candles whenever I see pretty ones. Few days ago I got her a lavender rose as a parting gift and she got me a nice sling purse from Primark. Sigh... we even call each other darling, baby & dear... Ok now we sound so lesbo. LOL. C'mon, it's sisterly love. It's not everyday u getta bond with someone u've just met and click just like that. She offered to lend me money if I'm ever in need of cash coz she knows I have financial difficulty. I do offer her back coz I know she needs money to help pay for her new sem as well. Sigh isn't she the sweetest chum ?

Burcu ! I'm gonna miss u soo soo much ! Come visit us when you're free ! Love you baby =) Thanks for being such a great friend and room-mate ! Muakxxxx Hugs & Kisses alwiz

Of Picture Requests & Blind Dates

Look, 1st of all, I don't send out my pictures to people on MSN. I'm not that kinda girl to do so. So if u had requested and I in turn rejected, please don't feel offended by it.

2nd-ly, I'm NOT trying to be perasan here. It's just part of my PRINCIPLE so if you're truly my friend, you'll understand. I've been called 'lansi' etc just because I said I don't send out pictures to people. These people then go on saying, "But you know me mah... I'm your friend wert... why so lansi don't wanna send?" And I continue saying, "I'm sorry i'm really not into sending pictures. It's my principle." The persuasion goes on with not much progress which leads them to being mad at me, thinking i'm some obnoxious biatch.

Please. I've had enough of this crap. I'm not pretty or anything and if u really SEE ME IN REAL LIFE, you wont be asking me for pictures. You wont even be interested in going out with me. And that's the reason i'm glad i have true friends sticking by me no matter how I look like or who I am. So be it. I'm OOGLAY.... You can go around asking other silly girls in MSN for pics but don't insult my principle. FYI I only send to very close friends and people I really trust. Some whom I didn't send to, really understands my situation and wasn't mad at me, which i'm thankful for having them as friends. HUGS...

And to those people who are sending your pictures to other people on the internet, especially to strangers... don't you know it's so dangerous to do so? There are lotsa bad people out there and I could only dread the worst to happen if they have access to your personal pics.

This is esp for the girls... PLEASE BE WISE and think twice before sending your pics to strangers or even going out with them. A lot of rape cases happen when you go on a blind date. Or even with a person you've known for quite some time. Things happened when you least expect it. You might think you know the person, but actually, YOU DON'T.

If you really wanna go meet this particular person, then make sure

a) It's a public place.

b) Your friends and family know where you're going and WHO you're with.

c) You go in groups. If he really objects and just want the both of you together, there's a possibility that he's up to something fishy. They'll alwiz say they don't. C'mon are u really that desperate to go out with this guy? You've gotta be wiser than that !

So please heed my advice and be smart k. Don't be a statistic.

Mystery Guy

Ok there's this mysterious guy with a strong British accent by the name of Raphael who's been calling n texting me often. Apparently he knows me and I suspect it's someone from college. Was trying to figure out this fella coz I know I only give few guy friends in college my num. I still don't trust guys u see.

This bloke Raphael was apparently being lovey-dovey and all to me and I cant help thinking it's a pathetic prank coz i'm absolutely NOT ATTRACTIVE at all and I wear very simple to college. NO make-up. NO accessories. Just plain old Charm. No, seriously. Sometimes, no combing hair. ( Cos rushing ma. You all never experience b4 meh? ). Oh ya not forgetting the specs occasionally. I still do have zits on my face.

To any Kaplan Financial students, if this is a prank, it's NOT FUNNY. I had told Vith and some classmates about this and they don't recognise the number. At 1st I thought it was G ( whatever it stands for, as I only know him as G and not interested to find out more ) coz he was being flirtatious with me n Vith during breaks n seemed fascinated by the culture of Malaysia. Plus G has this irritatingly strong British accent like Raph though he could be from some South Asian countries but grew up in England. And he alwiz act oh-so-smart during classes which really gets on my nerves. N he told me he has got a 1st class degree b4 this but couldn't even understand P3 ( Business Analysis ). Bahh. 1st class my foot. Yeah maybe on paktoh-logy la.

Neway back on Exhibit A. I was trying to avoid being nasty to the poor fella but he kept on sending me love msgs which I'm sorry I cant accept nor reply the same way to. I even lied that I have a boyfriend but Raph insists on me giving him a chance. Siao ahhh even if I do have a bf I wont cheat on him to try out with u, u silly boy !

I'm really pek chek d. If he doesn't stop, I'll have to drag someone to seriously post as my bf. I've got so many stuff to worry about and the least I wanna dread about is another stupid guy problem. I've had enough of relationships, guys and infidelities.

LEAVE ME ALONE ! Not u my dear reader. But guys ! I'm OOGLAY.. U-G-L-Y... I ain't got no alibi ! Go find someone else ! Ahhhhhhh

Celebrating our Results !

Ok i know this is such a long post from my last one but i was really busy.... sorry to keep the suspense going on about my results ! Anyway... Exactly 2 weeks ago, I had received the results for my ACCA exams. Last sem i took the 2.6 Audit & Internal Review, 3.1 Audit & Assurance & 3.4 Business Information Management.

*Squeals*

I PASSED ALL !!!

Yippideee doo dahh !! What makes me even happier is that it's not just average marks. Weeeee.... Sorry la i know i'm a bit perasan here but bagi chance sikit la. Let me have my moment ler =)

PRAISE THE LORD !~! Without Him, I would never even make it this far in this gruesome ACCA ordeal. Thank you Lord !

N a BIG THANKS to the youths & church congregation back home who's been upholding me in prayer. Doh jeh ahhh... When i'm back will chia u guys teh peng in our mamak marathon again ya !

Also, another round of thanks to all my friends who's been encouraging me, especially my besties. Just having u peepz on my side was more than i could hope for. Teh peng for u guys too !

Of course, the greatest support i had was from my family. Esp from my Mom & Sis Sherleen. They were constantly praying for me, giving me words of wisdom, cracking up jokes to make me laugh despite the tension... Hmm teh peng + massage from charm !

*Dances With Joy*

Congrats to those who had passed all their papers !
N to those who couldnt make it through, don't worry, this is just a stepping stone for the next trial. It's never called a failure. Just DEFERRED SUCCESS. As Thomas Edison said, " I didn't fail to invent a light bulb 999 times. I just found the 999 ways that doesn't make it work. "

Pei Sian had gotten her results too. She managed to pass Audit so this 2 dong-dongs decided to celebrate their results !

We went to a Bar near my house called The Beaten Path. What a name.

The Beaten Path

Didn't order any liquor coz we're good girls, thank you very much. Ordered food! Mine was chicken casserole with saute potatoes. Yummy ! Took some pics in this lovely homey-feeling bar. We only have our camera phones with low mega-pixel cam functions and the lighting isn't helping so i apologise for the bad photography.

Inner Part of the Bar which looks like a cosy home

View from another angle

Dong-Dong No. 1

Dong-Dong No.2

Having all those liquor bottles behind me. Didn't touch a single sip of alcohol, mind you.

Oh ya after that we met up with Amman to watch Rush Hour 3 at Cineworld Trocadero. It was nice, although i had expected more of the movie. More humour, more Jackie-Chan-fight scenes and definitely more hot hunks.

N for Pete's sake why couldn't they pick a better chinese actress? Zhang Jingchu looks fake at times. Sia sui nia.




I mean, this movie is meant to go international, and ppl might think China can't find any good female actress for the role. N to think that she had even trained at an Acting Academy and acted in the martial arts saga Seven Swords. Haiz...

French Supermodel-turned-Actress Noemie Lenoir was not bad here. In fact, she looks hot.




Ok enough about girls. What about the guys?? Jackie Chan & Chris Tucker isn't exactly Baywatch guys material. Nevertheless, they make a good duo.




N i really like their duet at the French nightclub where they sang Closer I Get To You. Cute la they both. =) Ok i crap too much once again.

Anyway.. that's about it all for the Aftermath Results Day. Cheers !

Results out TOMORROW !

Dub dub... dub dub... ( The heart is beating anxiously... )

Results are gonna be out in less than 24 hours. Make that 12. Scaryyyyy...

I've never been this nervous / scared / freaked out awaiting the release of results before. Probably coz this time i know i had did badly. Ahhhh y didn't i study earlier? I thought i could cope with all the stuff i'm involved in, but turns out i was wrong.

Stuff like this always happen, doesn't it? Months before the exams... you'll be thinking... "aiya still got long time to go... lazy to start larr... go enjoy 1st... life's too short yo"

N then... before u know it, BHAM ! Exam's in a month's time.

Cheh. 1 more month is it? Still can relax. Or like in the IPG trend, go sit in the hall for 3 hours' mock just to get back our RM 5 per subject. LOL. Does that sound familiar? *winkx*

N then a bit studying here n there, still go gurney go 'wet'...

Then BHOOM ! 1 MORE WEEK to go.... Walau that time pek chek till wanna lau sai ( errr what's the opposite of constipation? )

Then WHAM ! Tmr's the 1st paper! N you'll be burning the midnite oil flipping through notes that you never touched since the start of your course. Hahaha... This trend is all too familiar d. Then study till probably left 4, 5 hours of sleeeeep. zzzz... Next morn have extra kau coffee to sustain you through the 3 hour paper.

N all the time you'll be regretting for not starting ur revision earlier. Well that's me la... Typical Charm.

Know what, i alwiz did fairly bad in every sitting since CAT ( my foundation course - Certified Accounting Technician ) advance papers. Reason mainly coz i started getting involve in a relationship. N i joined too much activities. From college to church to state events. This is what u call "chiak pa siau eng" !

I had skipped lots of 2.1 (information systems), 2.2 (law) n 2.3 (taxation) classes early last year. N always inevitably late for classes. Coz at nite always cook "phone porridge" till 3, 4 am. Then next morn can't get up. Or certain mornings (esp on fridays) go dim sum with billy. Then lunch also go jalan-jalan cari makan with my gang or even go for a movie & as usual late for afternoon classes as well.

I still remember once i was late for almost an hour for tax. My lecturer Ms Cheah ask me, " Wua... which VIP did u have lunch with? " To which some of my cheeky classmates replied, " Who else? Prince William lah ! "

Ms Cheah just played along. "Prince William you said? What a nice lunch u had ! So shiok ah" "Yeah lor so lucky hor! We all have to stay here for tax with Ms Cheah summore" . Everyone laughed and gave cheeky smiles to me. N then they started writing notes in class (our paper 'msn') discussing about my so-called lunch-date. Adui ! Ms Cheah wanted to korek more but too bad haha. N actually there's more to this scenario but i'll just stop here for personal reasons. Up till today, when Pei Sian sees a postcard of Prince William, she'll bring up the 'date' again.

Next sem, mid of last year. Classes were 2.4 (financial management) , 2.5 (financial reporting) & 2.6 (audit). Hmm Ms Choong, Ms Ang & Ms Parames would know how much i had to skip classes or switch between group A n B to cope with my own activities. Esp the Basketball Clinics (training & coaching) that my church youth had organized together with YWAM (Youth With A Mission) & TAR college & DALAT International School. N lots more other stuff that i'm just "too free" to get myself involved in, like my mom's Thai community events, Spirit of Penang (stg like Amazing Race) , and lots more. End up, the Dec 06 exams i can only take 2 papers coz i know i cant cope with 3 or 4.

I couldnt blame it all on church, college & other activities as i had also spend a whole lot of time erm... with billy... which now kinda seemed like a pretty pointless thing to do, if you'd ask of my opinion. I mean, after everything that i had sacrificed (esp my studies/time/effort/family & friends get-togethers), he just let go of it all... for a pathetic biatch. Our 1 n half year's relationship isn't strong enough to beat meeting a girl in a club. Oh just F it all la.

Ok i shouldn't be vulgar. Sorry... i just cant help being fed-up, now as i look back. My mind was all messed up. Struggling between living alone in London & working with a mean boss & exam stress. I was left tear-stricken close to my June 07 exams. Now i see the consequences of crying like an idiot instead of studying.

Let's just cut the topic. It's making me feel even more worried bout my results. I'm just hoping for the best. Anyway... the anxiety is killing me. Wish everyone the best for their results... And please do not follow my example. I write all these to let you guys learn from my mistake, not repeat them, aight?..

Good nite.