Happy Birthday Charm

Lookin at the clock, it's 4am. 4 hours into my special day... Funny I don't feel anything special at all. Bahh. I'm such a dope. Friends online in MSN wishing well wishes and asking what's my plan for the day. Malaysia's awake now while some crazy Londoners are still up at this hour. Hmm sounds familiar.

Anyway. Basically. I have no plan. Well I did. If u read my previous blog, I had loads of birthday plans. Trip to Newcastle, Manchester, York, dinner etc. But I absolutely have no mood to melaksanakan any of it now. I cant be a spoiled brat and demand this-that since I'm very low on liquidity. I cancelled everything once I found out I cant receive my allowance on time. Besides, I cant go home in Dec anymore and I'm officially virtually broke.

I found out Pei Sian & Jun Li had wanted to get a birthday cake n surprise me but I busted their plan. At 1st I agreed on a dinner with some other classmates which PS had planned secretly but nahh... since not everyone can make it, and I'm not in the mood anyway, let's just cancel the plan. Stay at home n be miserable. Wait. START STUDYING. Eew study on my birthday? Start studying at all? Finals less than 2 months wo. If I really wanna graduate this Dec and be an ACCA graduate at 20, I have to.

What happened 4 hrs ago from my last post? Ok this sounds mysteriously weird. I duno about you, but the question freaked me out. Prob coz I'm alone in the kitchen right now in the middle of a cold foggy nite. With weird cat moanings and water running outside. I wondered what happened. N time had passed so mysteriously fast. Calm down Charm. Chill baby.

Let's think straight.... U had talked to God. Chat with people. Friends calling in. Texts. MSN. The whole usual lot. Ok ok I got my memory back. Again I had offers of help from my 2 exs Billy & Darvin. Thanks guys. Darv even wanted to email his guardian in the UK to help me out. Darv used to study high school here so he knows some ppl. Thankxx Darv. I really appreciate everything. N to zee wonderful readers, sorry if I had sounded like I'm trying to brag or stg. It's not like that. Really wan la...

4am. Reminds me of the song 4 In The Morning by Gwen Stefani. One of my favs. Sad ballad. "Stayed up till 4 in the morning & the tears are pouring & I want to make it worth the fight..." How suitable huh.

Wait now it's almost 4.30am. Which brings me to another fav song. Come To Me by P Diddy & Nicole Sherzinger of Pussycat Dolls. Yeah I think you all can recognise as my ringtone for the Summer Hols in Pg.

The video clip was like..
Alarm rings "It's 4.30am. Please wake up."
Nokia ringtone on P Diddy's hp.
Girlfriend picks up.
"Hello? Yeah... He'll be there"
Music starts.
"It's bad boy b*tch... Do it to it.."

What am I doing? I should be memorising ACCA notes. Not MTV clips.
Plus I should go to sleep. But I'm not sleepy. Maybe I'll just go lie in bed. Yeah I should. Nitez. Or Good Morning Malaysia.