In a few mins time I'll be officially 20. I should be celebrating. Or at least be happy. Wait... Smile will do...
But I simply cant. Not with what I'm going through. But hey... God had definitely help me since my last post. ZH had helped to pay for 2 subjects of my QBD. Ok this could be a reason for a faint grin. =) Now I only need to hunt another £170 for the 3rd paper.
Lots of friends had offered to lend me money, esp after reading my blog yesterday, but I didn't wanna accept coz I wanna count on myself. Besides, I dunno when I could get the money to pay 'em back. Thank you so much, I really appreciate all the offer...
Amman wanted to borrow from couple of friends to pull enough money for me. Thankx Yarr ( which means friend in Urdu ) but I cant let u do that. My ex Billy had came online and ask me what's wrong. He offered to send money to me from Qatar. Ya he's working there now as a cabin crew. He was really persistent to send and in the end, I gave in coz I'm kinda desperate. But a call to Zi Hur asking the procedures for money transfer lead him to lending me instead. Billy was offended that I took from ZH and not him. They're not in good terms you see. Let's just put it this way that boyfriends and guy bestfriends hardly get along.
Thank you so much, ZH... I would repay u as soon as my parents get the money to transfer to me. HUGSS... I'm glad I have a best pal like you...
Was on my way to Tesco to get some groceries this afternoon when my family called. It was 5 pm here. 12am Malaysian time. They wished me Happy Birthday and insisted it was the right time to call, since I was born in Malaysia so I should follow their time. Cute la... *smile* After a round of well wishes, I was dawned on another bad news : My Ah Ee's back-bone hurts a lot and might need to go for operation. You see, she alwiz cooks and cleans for my family. And my family cooks for the church sunday lunch so she's very handy with cooking large portions but now I guess it's gonna be a feat on my stressed up parents. Even so, I'm worried for my Ah Ee's health. My sis said that my great grandmother's health is deteriorating too. Haih... what can I do?
I cant celebrate and rejoice at this moment. I simply cant. You know, I'm the type of person who wants occasions & moments to be special & memorable. Things have to be special for the capturing of the moment. Naturally, I had wanted to make this birthday BIG. 20th birthday wo. End of teens and beginning of num 2 in front of your age.
But I simply cant. Not with what I'm going through. But hey... God had definitely help me since my last post. ZH had helped to pay for 2 subjects of my QBD. Ok this could be a reason for a faint grin. =) Now I only need to hunt another £170 for the 3rd paper.
Lots of friends had offered to lend me money, esp after reading my blog yesterday, but I didn't wanna accept coz I wanna count on myself. Besides, I dunno when I could get the money to pay 'em back. Thank you so much, I really appreciate all the offer...
Amman wanted to borrow from couple of friends to pull enough money for me. Thankx Yarr ( which means friend in Urdu ) but I cant let u do that. My ex Billy had came online and ask me what's wrong. He offered to send money to me from Qatar. Ya he's working there now as a cabin crew. He was really persistent to send and in the end, I gave in coz I'm kinda desperate. But a call to Zi Hur asking the procedures for money transfer lead him to lending me instead. Billy was offended that I took from ZH and not him. They're not in good terms you see. Let's just put it this way that boyfriends and guy bestfriends hardly get along.
Thank you so much, ZH... I would repay u as soon as my parents get the money to transfer to me. HUGSS... I'm glad I have a best pal like you...
Was on my way to Tesco to get some groceries this afternoon when my family called. It was 5 pm here. 12am Malaysian time. They wished me Happy Birthday and insisted it was the right time to call, since I was born in Malaysia so I should follow their time. Cute la... *smile* After a round of well wishes, I was dawned on another bad news : My Ah Ee's back-bone hurts a lot and might need to go for operation. You see, she alwiz cooks and cleans for my family. And my family cooks for the church sunday lunch so she's very handy with cooking large portions but now I guess it's gonna be a feat on my stressed up parents. Even so, I'm worried for my Ah Ee's health. My sis said that my great grandmother's health is deteriorating too. Haih... what can I do?
I cant celebrate and rejoice at this moment. I simply cant. You know, I'm the type of person who wants occasions & moments to be special & memorable. Things have to be special for the capturing of the moment. Naturally, I had wanted to make this birthday BIG. 20th birthday wo. End of teens and beginning of num 2 in front of your age.
- I had planned to go Newcastle last weekend for the pre-birthday celebration.
- Then dinner on zee big day at the Turkish restaurant that Burcu works in, which I happened to know the waiters there (whom also happens to be very good-looking Mediterranean guys). Then probably head on clubbin in the West End.
- End of the month travel up to Manchester again to meet up with friends in their college trip to York to see the Vikings Festival.
Lookin at the clock, I'm left with about 10 mins before my special day begins. I never dread the coming of birthday like I do now. Coz I cant even make it special for myself. Text messages wishing well wishes come flooding in. Plus the whole lot of MSN, FS n Facebook. Somehow that managed to put a smile on my face. Sorry if I sound braggy. Didn't mean to. But Thank you, dear friends. I'm glad I have u all.
I wanna spend the last few minutes of my teens in prayer with God. That's the thing that seems soothing now. I better go. Bye.
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