The Ultimatum - Charm Won't Be Back For Christmas Or CNY

Yes u heard it right. I can't go home this Winter 07/08 coz my family cant afford it.

I actually have an open ticket which I could use to come home before 31st Dec. But if I DO fly home, I would need to buy another ticket back to London, which is about RM 3k plus. The open ticket is already a sunk cost, i.e. past expenditure so my parents had decided to forgo it, so they wouldn't have to dig out another RM 3k for the flight back. =(

I admit I had went back to Penang twice this year, so I shouldn't be such a spoiled brat demanding to fly home I guess...

My 1st flight home in March was to attend my CAT Foundation Graduation ( which IPG had conveniently missed out my sem's batch, and even postponed the ceremony till April, when I'm already back in London ). Although I had managed to buy really cheap air ticks for this one, but still... You can imagine my frustations at the wasted flight.

2nd flight home during Summer Hols, was made in an impulse coz of personal reasons. I literally worked like mad to save money for this flight home. My close friends would know how I agree to almost every job offer, even on late night shifts just to earn the cash for my flight. Wei when I said I'd accept almost anything, pls don't luan-luan think k? I have my own PRINCIPLES and I won't go that far just to get some money.

Anyway... it's not like I don't have any friends here to enjoy with. But it's just not the same. I came to London not knowing anybody. No relatives, No friends. Nobody. I started everything from scratch. I DO have friends in other parts of England but they're all so far away from London, the capital city.

I made plenty of new friends here, from all over the world. N my new life here begins. I've gone through ups and downs, mostly by myself. N God. I was so naive with life before this. Not fully grasping at the fact that there's such a WHOLE BIG WORLD out there and lots of different kinds of people. Tell u honestly, guys here just wanna bed u, esp those u meet in clubs. How lucky I was to escape again and again. I never did learn my lesson last time but now I do. God was gracious and faithful to protect me from harm. He made me wiser, more alert. Don't worry, nothing awful happened to me.

Studying abroad does widen your perspective and outlook on life huh... You cant stay forever in a nutshell. So many stuff still goes on around you everywhere in the world so you cant be an ignorant dong-dong like I was. But don't worry, I'm still the same ol' Charm, just that : -

• more matured but not fully
• more of the confidence touch
• more cheeky =)
• more aware of my surroundings
• more simple towards life
• wiser? I hope
• less childish ( Nooooo I want the kid in me back... )
• less logging on to Friendster ( Please for goodness sake it's over-rated! )
• less Facebook-ing as well
• less fussy ( Was I ever one? Hehe... )
• no more Prison Break
• no more Heroes
• no more movies

Haha... That's about it all I guess. Anyway i gotta go now... laundry awaits charm... catcha later!