Stronger !

Feeling : lebih kuat =P

Listening to : Kanye West - Stronger

Charm says : Work it, make it, do it. Makes us harder, better, faster, stronger...

*Lebih kuat – Stronger in Malay Language

N-n-now th-that don't kill me… Can only make me stronger! Wee I'm alright again. Since my last blog… oops I mean last EDITED BLOG. Yeah since I cant even write about my feelings I was so ticked off I didn't wanna scribble another blog again, but then Kanye reminded me… Stuff like that would only make us stronger.

Well there's another reason why I like this song.

"Let's get lost tonight… U can be my 'oriental' Kate Moss tonight…"

=)

Yes? Oh right... You're waiting for an explanation. But u see, since I'm not even allowed to express my feelings, I shall not bother explaining.

=)

C'mon hint, charm!

Nah forget it…

=)

Oh and I stopped using Gucci Rush.

What's the new fragrance?

Gwen Stefani's L.A.M.B.

It has this young, vibrant smell to it. Superdrug 39.90 The Perfume Shop 13.99.

Hell yeah grab it charm!

N I officially burnt a hole in my purse. Neways I plan to starve myself so it's cool. I am getting fat. No. I AM ALREADY FAT. =) Whatever man I love L.A.M.B.

N lamb chop. Daddy's style.

As in my dad's cooking, not some erotic sexual moves Gosh u sick people.

=)

Yum yum pops I miss your lamb chop and sesame prawn toast and stew and 'siu yok' and your BBQ expertise. In fact pops you're the king of cookery I salute u. Mom I miss your thai dishes especially thai green curry and claypot tanghoon coz nobody on earth makes them as delicious as u.

N I miss both of your nagging and lectures and everything... In fact I miss everyone back home. As alwiz. Muakxxxx

Btw Amit i got the call from PwC. I got the job =) . But since it's PwC Malaysia head-hunting in London, I would have to go back home n work. In Kuala Lumpur the capital city. But sobzz i cant leave London. Not now. I haven't even repay your kindness in being such a great friend during the exam periods. =(

I had requested the lady who called to put me under internship instead of permanent job. Reason why, coz I really wanna try to look for a job here. I mean, what's the point of studying ACCA here when i'm gonna head back home to work? The past one year in England has been whoa, a roller coaster ride for me and slowly I kinda got used to living in London now (can't believe I'm saying this!). The PwC lady wasn't too happy bout my requests but she still asked me when I wanna start the interns and I said after April 30th (my visa expires). I got myself an internship with PriceWaterHouse Coopers on May 5 2008.

1st bunch of people I called is of coz my family. But my parents said that if i'm not prepared to work in KL yet, then continue stay put where I am.

2nd person - My London best friend Amman. I actually texted instead of calling coz erm yesterday we had another argument again coz erm i sort of like shouted at him coz he was prying into my privacy and i didn't like it. He called immediately and we discussed about the job thingy and he said I shouldn't let go of this opportunity and i'm being so very silly. He then texted me at work saying that he was actually hoping i wouldn't get the job coz he didn't want me to leave this place.

My another best friend Zi Hur also said i should take it up, and like wow coz this is the 1st and only proper job I applied for and I got it and it's not just any firm, coz PwC is like the world's largest professional services firm. (And then he asked me to join him travel to norway for hols =D ). Though some friends said i should stay and find a job here... Altogether mixed opinions everywhere and i'm still contemplating my next step though...

And by the way, today i just found out that Jason Tay from IPG just arrived in the UK on the 12th. Hertfordshire. N then few hours later I found out that Benny Lee arrived on 14th. To London! Not forgeting the great news that Grace Leong is coming in Sept!

Wow everyone's heading here. More reason i shouldn't go back.

I duno...

Of BFFs & Conflicts

- This post has been edited due to Charm being such a dong-dong telling about unimportant stuff which she thought nobody would read, but it turns out there are so many people who actually read/get affected by this one unimportant post, that conflicts arose and so this editing is highly vital. In fact, just don't bother reading -

Feeling : tired after boots shopping

Listening to : Sukrit - Kae Kau Mee Tur - Hua Jai Sila OST

Charm says : This is a beautiful Thai love song from the drama series Hua Jai Sila.

I know lately my MSN nick seems pretty confusing and I don't put song lyrics like I used to anymore. Thank you for all the thoughtful concern, friends… I really appreciate everything…. And thank you Austin for being such a great friend in times of dilemma. All the texts & calls must've burn a big whole in your wallet and i would never forget all the kind thoughts & prayers.

Since I'm in a calm mood now, and everything has gone back to normal, I wanna explain what has been going on. But I shall remain vague to protect the privacy of the people involved here. Che wah sounds cheem le…

Here goes nothing… (This is a VERY long post so if u dun feel like reading, you dun have to, okiez)

Well, 1^st up, I have a good friend, who now turned best friend in fact… you see… we used to debate about a lot of stuff, from religion to fashion to relationships, and compete against each other, even running up the stairs. And we'll laugh about it after that and that's it… I mean, that's what good friends do, right? Lately though, our arguments got more fired up, where both end up being pissed at each other.

The 1st ever big argument was in fact at the MACFIS AGM during my PwC interview. This good friend of mine got annoyed coz I seem to be spending more time with my other friends here and not with him. He tells me everything but I seem to forget to tell bout my stuff, even this interview. Ok close friends are suppose to share bout things going on, but I was caught up with exams and stuff and didn't have the time.. I got annoyed as well coz he chose to argue in the midst of my assessment n interview. Anyway we sorted it out in the end and were ok again.

Then there's a string of events going on, which put us on this roller coaster of friendship. I had ppk-ed (ditch or aborts the plan with someone) him couple of times and he gives me a nick name – DITCHER. When I get so annoyed at him, I block him in MSN. And crap he found out about this coz I'm such a bad liar, and now calls me a BLOCKER. Fine.

The latest big conflict was before he went off for the Arsenal vs Tottenham match at Emirates Stadium. He had came over to use the internet coz his apartment's connection has got problems. I don't wanna tell of the cause of the argument, but I guess I was kinda mean with my remarks and ultimatum, namely, "I don't need any advice from you, I can handle it all by myself!" or "Don't call me …. , just don't call me anything"

Ouch. That was harsh huh. And I showed him the way out and slammed the door behind him. (Ok, the door ter-slam by itself, but I was angry, so it's justified.)

Seriously, don't ever do that to your best friend when he's going to his fav football team's home game.

He texted and ask what's with me man… and then I was still mean and then Totthenham scored against Arsenal 1-0 and he got even more pissed. Thank God some great arsenal player equalized 1-1 or else I guess that's the final straw.

He apologized after the match and I did the same.

"Best Friends again?"

"Not just Best Friends, but Best Friends Forever…"

=D and we're back on track.

Today, we have our usual bickering about stuff, and as usual checked out guys/girls together. Last time I alwiz wanted to gay-anised him, so now he's trying to lesbian-ise me instead, so we could both check out girls together. Hah in your dreams la. He critised my NEW BOOTS although in fact it's actually beeyootiful and he just wanna annoy me like any brother would.

No point reading further fellas. I cut everything else, remember? Sobzz...

New Year Resolution 2008

Feeling : wishy washy

Listening to : Amy Winehouse & Mark Ronson – Valerie

Choc Statistics : 2 lil chocs from Marks & Spencer =) , 1 Kit kat bar

This is the moment my sis, sherleen has been waiting for… New Year Resolutions ! She alwiz wanted me to put "try being cool for once so I don't embarrass my sis with my royal lame-ness" as one of my Resolutions, but I never did wanna insert that clause in. But since she's been such a great sis and I miss her so terribly I have to somehow make way for this one… Here goes nothing… Enjoy!

Charm's New Year Resoliusion Rezolushon Resolution =)

1. Spend more time for God. I realized my quiet time with Him has been slacking, I haven't been reading my bible daily. Try to find more time for Prayer Meeting on Mondays, Bible Study on Wednesdays, Student Focus on Saturdays I think, doctrine class, student tea and evening service on Sundays. I shouldn't juz be satisfied with sun mornings.

2. Refrain from getting involved in a relationship or any form of love whatsoever till Oct 17 2008, aka my 21^st birthday. This is actually a 'carried forward pledge' from Aug 07… I got so sick of guys coz all they ever do is lie, flirt and wanna hit 2^nd base with you. Switching to being a lesbian is a definite no-no coz well, let's just say fruitcake is not my type. =D

3. Be mean, be very mean. I cant continue being a pathetic softie for goodness sake. Learn to SAY NO. Or "I don't like that."

4. Be cool so i don't exactly cause any unnecessary embarassment to the best sis in the whole wide world. Hahahaha sher, with that clause, I think I totally added an extra 50 points to my lame-o-meter. But anyhow, yes I finally realized that I shouldn't stick to being natural or blabla all that crap. I started using perfume, Gucci Rush, Givenchy Very Irresistible, Britney's Curious & Body Shop Moonflower. Don't worry, 3 out of 4 were gifts so I didn't exactly burn a hole in my purse YET. If u noticed, my MSN nick revolves around perfumes and it does have a double meaning, mind u (since hidden msgs are my favs).

5. Get a pair of boots and a nice black winter coat. Yes, can u believe it, after being here for a year, I haven't got any of those? I didn't realise I looked so ULU aka KAMPUNG aka VILLAGE until I sat down on the bench on Oxford Street and started watching people pass me by. My waterproof outdoor windbreaker and black trainers is so a turn-off. Come on charm, you're in London, the capital city of fashion. Get A Life! Go get some decent clothes like pronto!

6. Stop procrastinating, or at least, try?

7. Do my homework. As in cover my base before hitting the battlefield. Classic example : Northen Rock…Interview… ahhh dun remind me k. U catch my drift. And also homework homework. If I ever enrol in post-graduate studies…

8. Worry less, smile more, dun get too hyper like I alwiz do. My adrenaline system is faster than normal so I gotta keep myself calm. With asthma & post-operation syndrome seeming highly likely, I have to be careful at all times.

Yup. That's it. =) What's yours?

Ola 2008 !

Feeling : loved
Listening to : La Isla Bonita
Rant : Hello 2008 baby… we're gonna rock another great year ahead! WOohoO

Happy New Year everyone !! Thank you wonderful faithful readers for spending time to read my blog… love u guys loads !! Muakxxx =) Hope u all have had a wonderful end of year celebration, and I wish u guys the best of the best for the year ahead, aight… =)

AT 1st I thought it was gonna be a gloomy Christmas & New Year's Eve this year, being far away from family & friends back home… But God is indeed great and He turned the situation around to make this winter one of the best Celebration ever! My ex high school mates Felicia & Wen Yen came over to London for hols, and boy, we had so much fun together it feels like teen-hood all over again! We couldn't make it home for our high school reunion few days before Christmas, and so we made our own lil Convent Green Lane (CGL) Reunion: UK edition !

We 'took' some random trolley on the street for ourselves =P

I would put the pics up in Facebook soon. Ok pls who am I kidding. I am so lazy and ignorant to put any pics up, I have to rely on ppl tagging me to get any pics up… hehe… So Felicia, WY & Jean… I pass on this great responsibility to u fellas ya… =P

Ok la.. preview sikit here…

Camwhoring with London phone booth

Horses in Piccadilly Circus

On New Year's Eve, Jean, WY, Felicia, Amman, Tim and I went over to Tower Bridge to watch the bridge open and close and of course, being girls, we couldn't resist The Calling to cam whore a bit… We head on to Leicester Square to find Wagamama or some Italian restaurant, and gosh everywhere was packed, so we ended up eating Chinese food instead. It was cute watching Tim & Amman try to use chopsticks and Amman even tried seludup-ing one out for memories LOL !

After our late dinner, we ran to Westminster to try to find a spot to watch the fireworks & countdown… Somewhere in Trafalgar Square heading south, the road was blocked coz too many ppl were crowding the bridge… Darn.. we ran all the way through Fleet Street trying to catch a turning towards Embankment….

The fun is in the running through the streets and crowds, cheering & being crazy! U can see ppl playing music and singing in the streets, and we juz sing and dance along as we passed them… still keeping a distance from over-rowdy hooligans… I admire Felicia for running in her heels, salute to ya girl ! Wen Yen was being so 'seik cou' aka know what to do, darling I love u so much for dropping all those hints and the advices =) Ahhh why dun u come on over to stuuuudy here…. (To the tune of Valerie by Mark Ronson & Amy Winehouse)

Gosh there are dunno how many millions of ppl in London and out of the city plus those from all over the world who came over here just to catch the New Year celebration, London was absolutely jam packed man…

Anyway, we had so much fun, walking round even after the fireworks, taking pics at random places with random poses… eating nice warm £4 hot dogs... indulge in ice pops (yes on a winter nite), trying to get 'lost' in the lil forest haha… looking at giant spiders…taking more pictures =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR from the babes =)

Us lot at Embankment

Cant wait for the next New Year's Eve Celebration again ! Ahh another 365 more days to go, wait, make that 359!

Last Blog of 2007

Feeling : Excited O.o

Listening to : J Holiday – Bed

Shout Out : Happy New Year fellas!!

Wanna put my fingers through your hair… I'ma put u to bed… bed… *swoons* I like J Holiday. Only in bed. I MEAN the SONG. =)

Cheekiness aside, I would like to blog at least stg coz I realized I left my blog too long in the pool of cobwebs, much too long… Fear NOT my damsel, I mean blog-sel in distress, I shall save u from this treacherous mountain of isolation…

*wards off dragons of ignorance*

*sword-fighting with the evil Lord Busy-ness*

Aha… I finally reach my beloved blog-sel at the top of the tower... my angel… lying there on the crimson bed, rose petal surrounding her luscious body, looking so breathtakingly beautiful… I move closer... staring at her sleeping so peacefully... darling blog I shall plant the kiss of life unto u… MMMUUAAKKKXXXXX

Whatever this is so sick… LOL...

I will tell of the adventures of charm in some other blogs, but for now, let me just bask in the final moments of year 2007. Silence as charm contemplates… oh what the crap am I saying… let's go out and partaayyy… woohooo…

Londoners, see ya in Westminster !

Interview Post-Mortem

Interview was alright. Did I just said alright? I actually meant it was CRAP on my side. Sigh dun say d la... Neway the whole thing was divided to assessment & interview. The assessment was like these…

1. Essay pick 1 out of 5. Crap almost everyone else did the 1^st one, "Describe a situation where u showed leadership skills blablabla n what did u learn from it". I pulak did the one that says, "The stand against job-hopping generated different views from employers n employees alike. State your view on the matter blablabla." I hope being different gives an advantage, though I can never be too sure about stg.

2. Maths questions… more on a particular company's performance n us calculating fairly ok stuff. Only problem is time pressure.

3. Analyse the passage and state whether the inference given is true, false, or not enough info to say. Very tricky n again time is the essence here.

As I only have 2 hours of sleep the nite before, honestly, I was so blur and worn out I went home and sleep for an hour before the next session. On the bus home though, I almost had tears coz every other contestant seemed so professional & intimidating, leaving me to look childish and immature. Almost all zee girls have their make-up on. Right on charm. Stupid of me to think that natural look will potray a better outlook. Duh charm. We're judged by looks.

Ooh ooh 1 thing that made me happy when I reached home was that I receive 2 christmas cards n a Christmas gift by special delivery. Thank you Junnie & Melissa for the thoughtful card and Kam Hoe for the wonderful pink heart-shaped chocolate gift-box. I LOVE PINK N I LOVE CHOCS!

We were talking about sleep. Yes. After waking up n lunch I then put some light make-up on, feeling confident a bit, and then head on to bond street to shop with Rahim & Yan. Hahaha shopping (look-see, not buy) few hours before the main interview to release tension from the intimidating board room.

Interview was hmmm challenging yet informational. My interviewer told me lots of stuff and I did learn new things so it's cool. Though I felt I wasn't matured enough to give professional answers, especially on the Northern Rock issue.

All in all, this interview open up my outlook on different things and I definitely learned some stuff that I never knew before… Plus I did have fun at the place and meet so many new friends that are sweet and lovely… Now I have more reason to go to Lancaster, Nottingham & Manchester =)

It's definitely an experience of a life-time!

Charmster is Back

Feeling : All mixed up I guess

Listening to : 2 clocks in my room ticking… tickety tick

Study : Did I mention I had my last paper today? Make that yesterday!

Phew… it's all over… ACCA exams are all finished! At least until the results are out anyway... ( Fingers crossed ).

Moving on to my next move : MASS COMM !!

Hobby la I mean. I got hellova nagging from dad when I told him I had wanted or maybe just thought of contemplate switching fields.

Neway, post-exams fun fun fun begins! Typical of Charm to plan a whole list of stuff to do after the exams… Which she never even bother doing from past experience XD. Ok la now it's different coz she's a big girl now. And when u plan something, you have to work on it and not just sit around waitin' for the idea to collect dust, drifting away to never-land…

• Wed 12^th Dec : dinner with Malaysian friends ( pics up soon in Facebook if I ever get hold of 'em )
  
• Thu 13^th Dec : trip to Oxford ( a town outside of London where Oxford Uni is )
  
• Fri 14^th Dec : send Pei Sian to Heathrow, dinner with friends again, then X-mas partay with Esen
  
• Sat 15^th Dec : morn - Assessment with PwC, evening - PwC interview (gulp)
  
• Sun 16^th Dec : whole day church
  
• Mon 17^th – 22^nd Dec : Travel to Sunderland & Newcastle woohoo
  
• After 22^nd : lots of Christmas plans but no confirmation YET
  

I should be excited but now I'm so worn out due to only 5 hours of sleep for the past week. I just opened my inbox and got 3 replies from PwC. One stating I got the call-back for an interview this sat. It was from PwC Human Capital Centre, asking me to scan my ACCA, CAT & SPM (O Levels) results and send to her wo...

Hmm wish me all the best fellas... coz i know too little about interviews and too much about un-related stuff... =D

Okiez me go pack now.. Oxford is waiting for me...

Hmm I should be rejoicing a lot for everything but today, I'm just a bit annoyed, a bit frustated, a bit confused, a lot of burden, a really whole lot of tiredness and an even much more lot of wanting-to-go-home-coz-my-church-is-organizing-a-Christmas-ball-where-u-get-to-dress-up-as-a-celebrity-and-there's-gonna-be-emmy-awards-etc-so-it's-gonna-be-so-friggin-fun-coz-my-youth-so-rock-the-world.

Other than that, I'm alright... Sleepy... Nitezz

Time Off

Feeling : Stressed like siao

Listening to : Vanessa Anne Hudgens – Say OK (But I'm not sobz)

Study : Realised I'm way behind than where I thought I was

Dear beloved readers….

Charm is gonna take a break from blogging…. For about 2 weeks…. Make that 1 n a half…

By then, exams will all be over n we can kiss ACCA goodbye! Hopefully la for my case. N those taking the final ones.

Today was Question Based Day for P2 Corporate Reporting. It was friggin bad I almost had tears at the end of the day. ( Ok I actually did when I finally reached home n collapsed on the bed ).

Amit was here for the QBD as well. Thank God he was here to chat with me bout other stuff to get my mind off studies a bit. Boogie woogie dance ( hope I get the spelling right ) seems cool =) . He was such a great big help in advising what I should do at last minutes like these and which questions I should try out n about time discipline. Thanks heaps =) If only we had this discussion on say, Aug or Sept. Or even Oct. Maybe things would turn out better. But now… sigh… Neways thanks once again for the pointers!

Ok I'm staying online much longer than I've allowed myself. Better go now… to all my bloggie friends…. Esp trish & jess… see u peeps after zee exams…. Woooop

Muakx love ya all

P.S. To ACCA students! Pia ahead! Gambate n jia you! See u lot after Dec 12.

Keep Holding On

Feeling : keep-y holding-y on-y. haha…

Listening to : Avril Lavigne – Keep Holding On

Study : Halfway P2 CR d. Woopie!

Just a note to my friends at the moment who are struggling for the ACCA papers, SPM (Malaysian O-Levels), or any exams! Don't worry, as you have already put the best of effort on your side. U did ur best, let God do the rest!

I know it's not helping much, as this comes from a person who panics 24/7. I have a feeling this time I'm bound to fail a paper, no doubt. But hey… I'm still cruising along like nobody's business. Crap I know I should put in more effort but the laziness really sinks in too deep till I reach a point of no return. NOOOO…..

Lately I noe the moodiness n stress is really hitting-in inside of you, be it for exams or even personal problems. As you're reading this, yes I am talking about u... I hear ur pain n I understand totally coz I've gone tru the same as u… but remember, trials n tribulations are part of the ingredients in making us what we are today. We learn as we go along. Yeah sh*t happens. But hey some sh*t aint that smelly after all, if u breath in deeper! Ok btw, that was a joke.

Day by day we grow stronger… Like Britney Spears sang… "Now I'm stronger than yesterday… Now it's nothing but way… My loneliness aint killing me no more…Yeah STRONGER!"

She's struggling to fight for custody of her kids from pathetic ex husband K-Fed… n getting criticism from media everytime she does an error anyone of us normal people could have done. I think the paparazzi should give her a break. Stalking her 24/7. But she's still holding on… Well even she can do it, how about u?

C'mon don't disappoint Charm… stand up and be strong… be a man! Or a woman!

Think about those poor kids in Africa & Afghanistan… they're in a much worse situation… even eating grass & from garbage bin…You think for a moment, would they worry about exams, social & BGR problems? U cant imagine how lucky u are as compared to 'em. So people like me, having only £9.85 in my bank account as of today the 29 Nov, isn't afraid coz I noe somehow God will provide. Thanks joa for the offer… but I really cant accept it… My mom is saving up money to send to me soon… dun worry.

Ok la I go continue study now… and remember again… keep holding on… coz we'll make it tru, we'll make it tru… just stay strong, coz I'm here for u… as quoted by Avril. Or meeee...

HUGS.

Happy Birthday Junz, Malarz, Leoz, Sunz, Cynz & Chadz

Feeling : Stressed!

Listening to : Fast panicky heart-beat inside

Study : Yada yada I'm behind in my study target!

Ok panics aside, I wanna wish my very very good friends here HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

27 - Junie wunie my honey bunny. Hope u like the cake surprise!

28 - Malar sweetums the one I alwiz gang up with to bully our younger sisters. Haha… Sher & Honey is so going down!

29 - Zi Hur my best pal in Manchester. Wooopp anticipate your surprise in 7 hrs!

29 - Yen Sun my sunny warmy sugar cherry… Muah lou poh we go kai-kai if I ever go back kiez? Jia you for exams!

29 - Cynthia darling pumpkin pie… Woohoo we go 'wet' puas-puas k… also if I ever do go back… Gambate for exams!

30 - Last but not least, Andrew my chadzz honeybunchkins who has gone camping now… have fun in the woods and I'll see u soon!

Haiz see u all hopefully soon… kisses n hugs of love from me all the way from here !